I'm going to use this time to work on several projects. I'm starting up a mask making business because, oh did I mention we're in the middle of a pandemic that the US is not taking seriously? I'm also going to start posting stuff of Teachers pay Teachers. A lesson plan for each SOL and ASOL. I'm also going to get my house cleaned...let's be honest, I'll be working 40 hours a week instead of 60-70. I can get a lot done.
Oh, and the world is going to shit...so there's that too. Plague, riots, a racist president...you know...the usual stuff.
Some things I'm going to be talking about in the coming weeks:
My weight. I'm almost 300 lbs now, and although I do not believe that fat =ugly. I also do not look how I want to.
My health. Related to my weight, I need to improve my cardio, strength, and flexibility. It would be nice to go up the stairs without getting winded, do weird kinky positions, and lift heavy objects on my own.
My mental health. I've started Therapy. I have a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow, and I will need to do a lot of shadow work to figure out how to get rid of my codependency issues without swinging too hard in the other direction.
My FND. As stated, I'm having a pretty aweful flair. Almost had a seizure on Tuesday. Walking where I need a walker when not in the house (I can grab onto stuff as I walk here) and speaking issues. Screens bigger than my phone make my brain feel fuzzy. I have an appointment on the 7th to work through this.
Cleaning and hygiene. I have made huge strides in this area. Still need to improve. Showering 5x a week and brushing my teeth about once a week. (It was daily before I started working 70 hour weeks)
Reading. I got a new Kindle and started reading again. I'm making a point to read more minority authors. I'm reading for pleasure again. I'm going to be doing more of it.
More badassness. I want to do more research on badasses through time. Like really dig into their flaws as well as their virtues.It may help me examine myself less critically.
Adventures. I want to go somewhere I've never been before at least once a month.this doesn't need to cost money. Maybe a hike to an old ruin or a picnic in a park I've never been.
Hobbies. It's been a hot minute since I've had time for hobbies. I'm going to be seeing and creating fun lessons. I'm going to craft if the mood takes me. My main hobby will be decorating my house.
Giving back. I want to start volunteering...once a week is too frequent, maybe every other week? My Community Place is a local community center that helps out with the homeless population. I might look into helping them out. Won't have money for donations, but I might have time.
Moral code. I need to refine and improve on my weaknesses as well as celebrate my strengths.
Chores. Although I'm getting better at chores, I need to improve. This will be an outlet for personal analysis of methods that work and do not work.
Business. I'm starting a business...well, two if you want to get technical. I'm making masks (I've already started. I'm almost done with my first 20) and making a passive income on Teachers pay Teachers. I mean, I have to write lesson plans anyway. Might as well make some money off of it.
Religon. I have fallen off the religion bandwagon. Not for lack of interest. I just haven't had the time to do any shadow work, spells, research, or even minor rituals. I want to make a point of being more spiritual. I always felt more confident in life when I really knew what I did and did not believe and celebrated it.
Money. I've become so bad with money...like super aweful. I guess I got burned out on being poor. I spent 18 years mostly comfortable in life. Then I got poor. Deciding whether to eat or pay rent has been a legit choice for me in the past. after shit hit the fan with Joe I gave up. Now I cannot save. I do not budget. I just spend. Setting up a budget is my second priority because...
Debt. I am massively in debt with collection agencies calling on me all the time. Most of it is medical. I went to the psychiatric unit for a week and a half for suicidal tendencies and I had ankle surgery...both while uninsured. I was too depressed to pay the bills so I didn't. I'm paying for it too. My first priority is calling a credit repair company and getting my debt in order. Also student loans...which have been put on hold till after the plague is less serious. So there's that too.
I'll keep you all informed about the job process too. I'm applying to the jobs tonight. I've spoken with both the managers, and unless I severely fuck up...I have those jobs in the bag. Resignation letter is on Monday. I will work for an additional 2 weeks then I'm starting the new gigs. I'm not going to smack talk my job on here though. But we are having staffing issues, and I've been working between 60 and 80 hour weeks. It reached a head when my FND resurfaced and I had the thought: "I don't want to be a teacher anymore." Which is rediculous because I love teaching.
Anyway, that's whats heading your way in the next few weeks. Till then...
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