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Monday, January 1, 2024

Happy New Year

It's the new year and per usual I have plans. Truly, though I only have 1 goal: to be a better me. How do I accomplish this? Self reflection and loose goals. I want to read and write more. I want to clean and be hygienic more. I want to love myself wholly even though I seek change.
I have a bedtime of 8 now. Wake up is at 5am. I have classes now...or I should if I can figure out why they aren't charging me the right price. That's a problem for tomorrow Laura.
Tomorrow I will wake up, take my pills, shower, eat breakfast and pack my lunch, clean the litter boxes, and then go to work.
Work should go well, and if all goes according to plan I should have the sizable chunk of my work done and get the school stuff settled. 
I'll come home, put away laundry and relax for a bit before doing it all again.
I'm going to be eating less and drinking more.
I have a wedding to prep for.
I'm getting overwhelmed talking plans. So I'm going to listen to my body and brain and end it here.

Thursday, October 12, 2023

Busy Bee

Work takes a large chunk of my day now, but I'm still getting a lot of stuff done. It's not as much as I hoped, but it's still things that need to get done. For instance I've not missed a day for kitty litter except the day I was out of the house for camping. 

Something cute. There is a Cody sock on the ground I haven't picked up yet. Cedar keeps trying to bury the stinky sock. There's no litter around it, but he's still trying.

Cody is buckling down and trying to improve his life. I am so proud of him! 


Wednesday, October 11, 2023

Suspicious

Work has been suspiciously easy. I'm waiting for the hard stuff to kick in. Today I work with kids for the first time. I hope they like me. If they don't like me they'll cause me a lot of trouble. I need to remember not to try and be cool. I just need to be.

I'm still getting the kitty litter boxes done checking mail and feeding the fish watering the cats. On top of that I have also been taking care of Rachel's cats. I need to clean their litter boxes today.

I bought some new clothes last night because I got a little bit of a windfall. The pants I bought are super comfortable. I'm still stressing spending the money though. I needed new clothes for work, but I'm still stressing the money. We don't have enough of it right now.

Tuesday, October 10, 2023

back to basics

New era in my life calls for a new schedule. 

Schedule
5:00 AM: Wake up, Coffee, and Relax
5:30 AM: Take Pills, Cat Litter, Trash, Mail, Weigh In
6:00 AM: Exercise Challenge
7:00 AM - Shower Routine and Rest
7:45 AM - Go to work
3:30 PM - Rest and Snack
4:00 PM - Cleaning Challenge 
5:00 PM - Make Dinner or Cleaning
6:00 PM - Cody Time 
7:30 PM - Bedtime Routine
8:00 PM - Bedtime


I took out all my learning stuff and really minimized it. This week I'm not sticking to the exercise challenge because the new job is a hell of a workout. Next week though I start 30 minute stretches daily. The week after I start couch to 5k over. That way I'm not pushing myself too hard. I don't want to relapse.


Monday, October 9, 2023

Moving fast

Everything has been moving so fast since Wednesday. Thursday I was recovering from Wednesday. Friday I found out my new job starts Monday. Then I went camping. Sunday I slept most of the day to make up for lack of sleep during the weekend. So that brings us to today. I am ready for my first day on the job. I don't know what I'm getting into, but I look forward to the challenge.

Well I had my first day and I enjoyed it. I'm so glad I started exercising beforehand. I'm going to get so heart healthy. It's a big school, but we'll organized.

I get 2 planning periods!!!! Like, WHAT!? IM SO EXCITED!!! That and the co teaching leads me to believe this is going to be a good year!

Wednesday, October 4, 2023

Adventure

I'm going on an adventure today. Cody's mom and grandma are going north to the city and they invited me. I'm excited.

It means I had to speed through my morning tasks. It was good practice for when I have a job.

I drank a little last night. Not much, but still enough to have a headache this morning. I took some pills.

I have my final interview on Friday for my job. I look forward to it.

Tuesday, October 3, 2023

Job Offer

I got a job offer yesterday. I'm going to be a middle school SPED teacher. It's not what I wanted, but it will do. I am both apprehensive and excited to start. I just want to be working. I don't even think I can do it, but I'm sure as hell going to try. I called the principal to see when the job starts. I had to leave message. We'll see what she says.

My morning routine has been off all day. I'm an hour behind because I can't focus on getting anything done. It's like I'm a slug getting things done.

I'm writing today off as a loss already.

Same with yesterday afternoon. I'm thinking it had at least a little to do with Cody being angry and hyperventilating because of his job. I think he needs some Buddhist training because it's not that critical...but I'm not him. It could be critical to him.

I'm so nervous about the new job!!

I spent way too much money on ingredients for a roast beef sammich...but I was craving it and I needed a reward for getting the job. I am seriously broke. Like 0 funds. I have like 20 bucks to last me the rest of the month. I don't think I can do it. Cody has more money once he starts getting paid again. We'll see how long that takes.