Cruise prep and other stuff

I am so excited for my cruise! At a week out I had already packed all but my medicine and phone charger. We have our shore excursions planned. We're going to go to the dining room's "Chocoholic night."

My boyfriend's parents got me a belated birthday present: cash to use on the cruise!! So with their contribution I'll have $250 in cash!! That's enough for souvenirs for family and friends! And the ubers, which I was not looking forward to paying. and maybe a dinner in Miami. I'm so relieved!

I didn't get any work calls that I liked so I spent yesterday working on my Book of Shadows and making a shelf for my nightstand. It was going to be for my alter, but it doesn't fit. Today I have a half day working with my beloved Special Education classes.

I planted my flowers indoors shortly after Ostara (Pagan Equinox Celebration) on the 20th and they are already coming in! I'll plant them outdoors when I get home from my cruise. In the meantime I lined the flower bed and aerated the soil. My goal is to have a beautiful flower bed. I'll also be planting pumpkins this year from hanging baskets, and some herbs to keep inside.

I think this year I'm going to clean off the back patio and make it feel more like a magical place to eat dinners. That means looking for patio furniture so we can eat outside. I have this friend who has all sorts of amazing meals and she and her husband eat outside or drink together casually. I'd like that for Joe and I.

UGH! I'm so excited about my cruise! I'm just imagining all the sun, drinks, and food I can handle! Adventures with one of my best friends. I'm not a huge fan of beaches, but We're going to be in the water most of the time snorkling. Plus I need to pee in the ocean for my bucket list.

I'm still afraid of loosing my passport, or having things stolen, but the excitement is overcoming the anxiety.

If I wasn't afraid I would...

If I wasn't afraid I'd go see a movie, I'd fire a gun, and I'd...well that's about it. And the only reason I'm afraid of those is because of my medical problems. I wouldn't fire a gun in case I twitch and hurt someone. Guns are not a toy or a joke. I take them very seriously. And movies I'm afraid of because I could have a seizure which puts my license on the line. Though honestly I'm working up to seeing a movie in theaters. I feel like it's only a few months off.

Other than when my or someone else's safety is on the line I tend to ignore my fear and do what needs to be done.

Catch up

I haven't posted much of substance in a while. It's mostly been because I've been feeling drained and not very motivated to do much. Some updates:

I won runner up in a cosplay contest with Joe for our post apocalyptic costumes. I'm a sheriff and hes a scavenger. We worked really hard on our costumes, but the guy who won first place did a full suit of Halo armor in EVA foam. He totally deserved the win.

I planted my flowers for this year. It's going to be nothing phenomenal, but I'm doing it. I have some moon flower, cypress vines, Rue, yarrow, texas blue bonnets, and a bunch more. I'm out of my spider flowers, which I really like. However, I'm determined not to buy any planting supplies this year after last year's over spending. 

So I'm going on a cruise in a few weeks and I'm very excited. The only problem lies in the fact that I have no money. Well I have enough to pay gratuities, and $100 in spending money. So I'm quite anxious. I'm also not talking about it on facebook because, honestly, I shouldn't be going. I don't have that kind of money. I don't know what I'm doing pretending. I'm not even working 3 days a week yet. I'm still on disability. I simply shouldn't be going. And I suppose that's the crux of my anxiety about the trip.

Still. Mom and dad bought my way onto the cruise and that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to cruise my little butt off.

So far the schedule is:
Visit my parent's on April 1st
Fly out on the 2nd

Leave port on the 3rd

Grand Bahama Island on the 4th where well do a catamaran and snorkle adventure

Nassau on the 5th which is a beach day and we'll probably do our 5k

Their private island on the 6th and we'll snorkle an underwater sculpture garden
Back in Miami on the 7th

Back home on the 8th. 

A friend told me she missed my writing so I picked up writing my novel again. It's taking a lot more effort than before, but I'm writing it. Who knows. I may even get the rough draft done this year.