Morning babblings

This week at work has been really hard. Not bad, just hard. The kids have been out of control. I’m to the point where I don’t want to go and see what they have in store for me today. I mean, I still love my job, but it’s been chaos all week. Luckily I’ve received no injuries so far. They seem to either fear or respect me too much for that. I’m pretty sure it’s respect. I think it’s because I’m taller than most of the other teachers aides that work in my classroom. I’m also pretty no nonsense. If they are doing something wrong I tell them to stop instead of asking nicely. I used to ask nicely, but they walked all over me. Now it’s better. I don’t know. Watch me get horribly injured today because I said something.

I’ve been doing a piss poor job at dieting. I need to eat bigger lunches and also not eat out. I ate out yesterday as an excuse to be in my quiet car for 30 minutes. I could have eaten at work. I even brought a lunch, but instead I went to McDonald’s to escape the chaos. Though on a positive note I had a salad for dinner.

I’ve gotten no chores done this week. I mean I did 3/4 of the Windows last night but in the scheme of things that’s nothing. I keep going back to my to do list and thinking “that should be done before the party on Sunday. Or I think that I need Joe’s help, and he’s been out at night all week. Hopefully tonight we can get a new rug for our living room (my Christmas present :) ) which means we can finish the living room.

I’m successful in cutting out cigarettes...well mostly. I smoked during the party this past weekend. But I had planned on that. My e cig can’t keep up with my smoking during outdoor parties. That’s going to be a hard thing to quit. Because I’m quitting entirely. No smoking while camping, no cigarettes at parties, nothing. I want to have good lungs. I’m hoping that joe will quit too one day too. It’s hard, but I want him to be healthy too.

I haven’t read a word this week. Between my weekly games on Tuesday and Thursday, and chores I just haven’t had the time. Well I guess I have had the time because I have read a lot of Reddit. I guess I need to stop lying to myself.

I have done my daily goal of duolingo. That’s heartening. Mostly it’s been review so it’s easy sauce. I am liking Spanish. It will also be important for my job. That and Arabic. But what I want to learn is Japanese. Maybe one day I’ll get there, but I need to master Arabic and Spanish first. And Arabic is coming out on Duolingo soon!!

I’ve decided this year as a Christmas gift for myself I’m going to come out of the broom closet. I’m going to post on Facebook that I’m a nature worshipping, ancestor venerating heathen. I think what will be harder is coming out to my dad. He’ll want to debate it, and I’m just not comfortable enough yet. I just don’t know if I believe in deities.

I have a cookie exchange party Sunday and my textbooks come in today so I have a lot to be excited about this week. I also have a work party and a birthday party Friday. Which means Saturday is going to be super busy with cleaning. I’m thinking about skipping game tonight to clean. I need to get the house presentable, decorated and bake the cookies for the party. Yeah. I’ll probably skip game.

So my boyfriend’s mom read my blog post about my aching feet and she’s giving me some decent shoes. I’m excited by the possibility of not wanting to die when I get home from work! She’s also given me work shirts a lot this week which is good because laundry has fallen by the wayside. Also I had to get rid of a bunch of clothes because they didn’t fit. I need to do laundry bad. I might do a few loads tonight to get me enough work shirts to make it through next week.

Next weekend is Joe’s Family’s Christmas party. It’s in West Virginia, like 4 hours away. I’m not looking forward to the drive, but I am looking forward to the party. I love Joe’s family. They are all so fun and interesting.

I’m going to post all of this months goals tomorrow I think. Writing them down again will help me do them. Now I need to get ready for work though.